friendship is a hard thing... lately I've been thinking a lot.. about people especially those back home. A year...seemed to have passed so quickly and yet at the same time...it was quite a long time. I was talking to someone today..and it really reminded me of how far I feel from those back home. So many things have happened...and so many people have grown... made me wonder how much I know people now...

there was a couple of friendships...that i wanted so much to hang on to...but...it seemed hopeless... but...God showed me in my devotions that

"love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud, it is not rude, it is not self seeking. It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres"1Corinthians 13:4-7

I was reminded that I do not love these people because I expect them to love me back (cuz...that would be self seeking...) I do not care about them...for anything in return. I care for them, love them...because I want to and God has put it in me to. Another thing it reminded me when I read this verse in my devos today is that Love perserveres. I 'm not going to give up because love doesn't give up when things gets tough...but keeps on trusting in God to pull through. :) so...yeah... Thank you God for that message today.\ :)

Today...was an interesting day...hehe...anita and I went to pick up groceries...but it was sooo weird...we made a list..but we kept forgetting what we were looking for and getting sidetracked and stuff :) it was really funny...cuz yeah...we kept forgetting the same stuff over and over..O_o but it was a lot of fun. I don't think I've ever enjoyed grocery shopping b4...but it was interesting today :)

Also...its been great just getting to know TIff a bit...I've known her for awhile now but I don't think I've ever really talked to her....or gotten to know her...but...she's only been here like 5-6 days..and i've felt quite comfortable talking to her about lots of things...this is weird for me as I don't usually warm up to people that easily... so..GOd's really been helping me out there :)

I got a chance to talk to Jo and Wallace and Jasy (briefly...) online today :) haven't been able to do that in awhile :) Thanks guys ^_^ made me feel really happy :)

hmm....feels like I haven't written in awhile.. and so much has happened...I thought I would write.
Where should I start? well....its been great with Tiff here ^_^ just cuz 4 people feels a bit better...I don't feel like I'm in the way as much...though it seems like I should (more ppl u know?). She seems to be doing really well and God has really been answering our prayers as people have been very friendly and accepting towards her :) She also brings so much energy and new ideas :) ...it sometimes just makes me smile looking at her. And wishing...I had more energy ..so its been enlightening.. :)

This morning for service..the message really struck me. It was based on Isaiah 6:1-8. "I saw the Lord seated on the throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple..." "Here I am, send me" These verses just reminded me of the song and then...helped me picture God at the center on his throne...and his glory shining...this indescribable glory...that fills the whole earth. This verse so greatly reminded me of God's glory and how it is HIM who makes us worthy. I have been starting to read the book "The Normal Christian Life" by Watchman Nee. I haven't gotten very far but it has talked about how it is ALL God's doing and it is by HIS blood that we are considered worthy and righteous before God..and not by any other means. And each time we come to God...it should be on the ground of the blood. It is by his blood that we can approach him in prayer. That we can be willing and open and worthy enough to do His will. Its all because of what HE did.

Basketball was great today too :) cuz...it was beautiful out...clear skies, sunny...though the weather forecast predicted thunder storms. Afterwards...we went to Glenelg for ice-cream and drinks (I didn't have any ice-cream!!!! :P :P hehe...still keeping with my new year's resolution :P) ...it was beautiful! ....the beach...the water...the sun...I could just sit there and just soak it all in. Took lots and lots of pics!!! hehe ^_^ me and scenery.

Another interesting thing that happened today was...we were trying to find favourite songs from the internet..and I remembered this song from church that I liked so much for the words...but couldn't find on the net.. Its called "Lord take control". I brought it up to Anita and guess what?!? this person from her church wrote it..!! and...she knew it!!!! AH!! ^_^ soooo cool! ...then...Ivan looked up a phrase from the song..and we found the song on someone's blog. Looking at the blog...guess what?!? I knew the person who wrote the blog. Its SONJA's PAGE!!!! crazieeness eh? :)

Thanks Sonja! :) for the lyrics...

LORD TAKE CONTROL - KINSON LEUNG

The evening lights fade out, end of another day
everyone so distant, another world away
So much to do, so much out there to see
so many faces and places yet to be

NO time to be with Christ , little time to pray
can't hear His promptings, my heart has turned away
And i wonder why i feel this void inside
Even with a shell to hide, yet i feel myself asking...

Why is it so hard? to deal with the sin?
To draw on His power within
Why is it so hard? to let His love work in me?
Bow down right on my knees?
Lord take control of my life...

The morning sun breaks out, start of another day
really feel a gladness, a peace that stills the waves
People wonder why, theres so much joy inside
in my darkest hour, Jesus answered my questions..

so...yeah it was sorta scary that people can trace one's blog so easily... but at the same time really cool that we were able to find the lyrics...on the site of someone I knew..but yeah... I really like the words.. it was one of the songs that I came across when I was deciding whether or not to go to Aussie..and...what I wanted to do with my life.

The last few days, especially today, I've been questioning why...God has placed me here.. what his plan is.. cuz..I guess I feel that I don't have anything special to offer.. I don't seem to have the same interests as those here.. and maybe just my personality... its sometimes hard to start conversations and such.. but I keep reminding myself...that God IS in control and that he uses ALL these weaknesses of mine for HIS glory. I just need to trust =) and keep asking him..to take control...and I should be reminded...to let HIM take complete control (and not struggle).

hehe...like I said...everytime I write...I seem to have a lot to say.. sorrie..
last thing..then I'll close..hehe..I promise..
I guess...I've been thinking a lot...about people back home a lot. I guess its been real hard accepting...that...the friends that I thought I had....might not have been as close as I thought they were.. someone mentionned that they would write me a letter..and when it came time....there was no letter... I guess I was disappointed.. cuz others got letters...it made me wonder where I stood.. BUt...I learnt something from this... that when I expect things from people...I easily get disappointed..but...it is on God that I should put all my expectations...cuz...with Him...I know he won't disappoint me..and...I will always find fulfillment :)

anyways...my thoughts for now..hope to hear from you all soon. ^_^

TIFF IS HERE!! :) hehe...internet was down yesterday..so didn't get a chance to write. ^_^ but..yeah..we were all going to go meet her at the airport..but Colleen showed up and told us it wouldn't be her driving so we couldn't ALL go :( :( so..I ended up going by myself with Mrs. Poon. BUt yes....we got there...thinking we were late..but the plane arrived late.. I was sooooo worried that Tiff had been waiting by herself...and stuff.. but...it was late...20 minutes or so..so...she didn't come out...until later...( I guess God satisfied my worry and had me wait instead of her...which to my feeling is a lot better :) ) :) anyways all was well ^_^

Tiff brought pics...which Jo was nice enough to put together.. THANKS JO ^_^ yay...pictures :) are sooooo fun. ^_^ yay.

We went to the city..ate lunch :) ...and...just had some time running some errands..and just spending time together. The weather was BEAUTIFUL ^_^ clear skies..and sunny... Ivan told us it was like this almost everyday in the summer...hehe... ahh well.. I tried BOOST juice for the first time. It was soooo filling! but so yummy :) hehe... we should have one of those in Canada.

Prayer meeting was at night...and after...me and Tiff..went back home..to rest..cuz she was super tired..(jetlag :) hehe) and..I was tired..cuz..I had only slept like 4 hrs the night before..

TODAY: ...we had a chance to meet up with Jenni :) :) and...we had quite a lot of fun at Marion...just playing at the arcade..chatting..and...watching daddy daycare ^_^ (cute movie :)) ...though I would've enjoyed more time talking with her...it was a good chance just to spend some time together...and...learn a bit more about her :) I had done my laundry earlier in the day...cuz it was bright and sunny..and left it out to dry..while we went to Marion..but as we were about to leave...Anita noticed that it was raining!! ahhh....."my clothes are outside" I thought :( :( they're going to be wetter than b4...I hung them.. but on coming home...I found out that the auntie was soooooo nice and brought themm in for me. I was so grateful to her for doing that. She didn't have to and yet she did :) thank you.

For those of you reading...maybe you could pray for us...for wisdom.. as I know..me personally I'm having trouble deciding what to do with Sunday school. Its been something that's on my mind...throughout each week...for the past couple weeks.. we've started a series...but...I don't feel its working very well. and..we're debating on whether to do something completely different yet..at the same time...I don't know if I want to just leave that topic...(ie/ not finish it) .. God please help. I ask for wisdom at this time.. I know it is not me that is doing it but God..and I need to learn to rely on him to do it...Thank you for your prayers =)

Hiya =)
I seem to always be writing around this time at night...I was just noticing that for my last few writings...:) hehe.. I'm sorry about sunday's entry.. i was rereading it...and...yeah...I sound very cluttered and I think that's how my brain has been ...just thinking about a lot of stuff..

Today was an interesting, (to say the least) ...kinda day =) Anita and I were supposed to meet Muy Jhou for lunch...but we JUST missed the bus by a little! aahh...and we were supposed to meet her ON the bus so...O_o ....we didn't know what to do.. Finally we decided that we would split,since we had two mobiles,...one of us would go to the city hoping to find her near Target and the other walk to her house...to see if she had decided to go home.. Wow...it seemed like one chance in a million especially if Muy Jhou decided to go to the city cuz we didn't set a meeting place at all!

So....anita took the bus into city and I started to walk. I was walking so fast! .....my legs were starting to ache..but anyways...all the while...I was feeling bad.(I dun like being late...or...not knowing where ppl are...feeling that I should've been there..) ...and..praying.. praying that we'd find her. But in my head...all the worst case scenarios were also going through my head. Anyways...on arriving at her house...I rang the doorbell to find..... no one at home. "not good" I called Anita to let her know..then decided to write a note to Muy Jhou in case she went home. As I was about to slip it under the door when her parents came home. haha :) I tried to talk to them but they only spoke mandarin... ahh...well.. I left them the note. Then...headed for the bus. Still praying. Praying that Anita would find her...though chances were soooo slim. or if she hadn't gone to the city..I would spot her. As time passed.. I began to see the impossibility of finding her...and just when I thought "it is impossible", my pocket started to vibrate!!! THE PHONE! I picked it up.. it said,"You'll never guess what happened?!?" ....

"...." i had no words.. so happy. God is good. =) I really can't believe that he did it. It was almost as though I could hear him say "oh ye of little faith" I smiled. I had no reason to believe that he wouldn't watch out for me....or that this was impossible. Praise the Lord for he is good :) Its not cuz he found her for me. But because...he shows me...time and time again that he is faithful..almost trying to whack my head...each time..I doubt..despite my lack of faith..he continues to show me..and spend time..showing me i have no reason to doubt. :)

The rest of today was just...uplifting.. we had really good conversations during the rest of our time together...about life...purpose..and she shared with us her testimony. And..it was such a powerful testimony :) It brought such inspiration and joy to me as I heard it and as I heard her talk. She was so passionate and you could tell by her expression and tone that it was real. that God was moving in her...not giving up on her...and after turning to him...she has the desire..the DESIre to KNOW..God's love. And just hearing those words come out of her mouth...just brought this overwhelming joy to me =)

Hehe....as we bused home...Anita and I were talking...so into it that we had no idea whether we missed our stop or not.. ^_^ hehe...so we rang the bell thing...and got off...but then realized we hadn't passed our stop and were in fact still a bit away.. hehe. ahh well..it was a nice day.. a great day to walk.. and think and THank~ God...just for being HIM.... and giving him glory for this day ^_^ . THank you God ! ^_^

** CAN't Believe it! Tiff's gonna be here TOMORROW MORNING!! hehe.....so soon! =) please keep praying for her safety.
**To those back home who just finished exams, CONGRATS :) :) can't wait to talk to you all...write me please =P

troubled...today...
I have been struggling with what and how to teach my sunday school class... it seems that no matter how i choose to present material...they always...seem to have blank stares back.. or...seem to be very uninterested. I guess its been on my mind cuz even after the time was over...the constant thought has been on my mind...and tugging at my heart. I've really wanted to reach out to the teens especially those in my class...but....
or...maybe its not just these matters.. i guess there are certain other things that have been on my mind...things that I don't really want to discuss...but yeah...I guess I've been thinking a lot. I know for those of you know that know me..:) hehe.. Thinking a lot can be a good thing ^_^ but...sometimes...it could also be a bad thing. Maybe its cuz I'm feeling time here..is passing too quickly..and I don't seem to be accomplishing anything I can hold on to. I'm not sure exactly what it is.. maybe a combination of things..:?

I was inspired today by someone though.. :) there's one thing..that has been on my mind. I guess...I didn't really want to admit to myself that it was on my mind but it was. There was this girl...and...she looked passed the obvious...and looked at the details...to care for someone else.. I don't really want to give details making this very hard to explain. But it really made me realize... how noticing...certain things that normally go unnoticed is very important. Of all people, I didn't expect her to care in such a way..but she did... maybe...it was cuz..I've been hurt..in such a way..but I thought it was petty for me to feel hurt.. yet...when she brought it up...it made me think "wow..she understands".

it prolly doesn't make any sense to people reading.. I want to thank this girl though she won't know who she is.. at this moment anyways.. I also want to thank God... for showing me what I needed to learn..:) Lord help me keep learning...and keep seeking...you.

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess for he who promised is faithful" Hebrews 10:23~
he promised. and he is faithful. Thank you Lord~thank you for being an ever present constant in my life..someone I can always rely on...turn to. I am assured in knowing that YOU will never abandon me.

school...course selections! ...I was reminded yesterday that we had to select soon and checking my email..I realized that I can apply monday!!! Aaahh...so soon! ..craziness... don't know what to choose for my elective.. hm.. french? ..or pathology? ...i dunno.. I don't have the timetable book here..and it seems that everytime I check for the timetable on the net, its the wrong time or..its just not ready to be viewed..? hm.. reminded that my summer is half over already!! its nearly July! and my time in Aussie is quickly disappearing..

I was reminded of a verse earlier this morning as I was doing my devotions
" My grace is sufficient for you for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christs' sake, I delight in my weaknesses, in insults, in hardship, in persecution and in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinithians 12:9-10

I think...this verse really encourages me...because I feel I am really weak..and there are so many things that I can't do.. so many things that everyone seems to do better than me.. but I am comforted by the fact that if I lift my weaknesses up to God...they become strengths FOR him. =) So..even though I'm weak...it is through my weaknesses..that it will be shown that it is HIM who is working..and not me cuz on my own.. i couldn't do any of it. ^_^

Tonight at prayer meeting, it was Anita's turn to share.... she shared about how God is faithful in everything. And how the answer to all her problems is " God is faithful". There was something else she said that really stuck out at me....that was this verse:...

"do not be anxious about anything but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God that transcends all understanding will guard you hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus"
Philippians 4:6-7

if we know the promise that he told us in this verse...it is that we must not worry about anything.. so...all our worries we must give to him.. and give all of it to him. That means...that if we're still worrying...we have not given it to him..and by doing that.....we are in fact doubting the fact..that he can take care of it. so...in other words..we must let go.. completely. Its easier to say than to put into practice.. but I'm reminded once again...that unless we give our worries completely to him..we will never gain that peace. In worrying..we are in fact..not believing that God is faithful...that he will take care of it. Its like..when we tell our best friend to do something important for us.. we then..leave it in their hands...we don't worry about whether or not they'll do it.. it is a matter of trust.. faith .. does that make any sense?

yeah....faith.. I need to leave all worries at his feet..and not take them with me... when I stand again..

Lately...phrases of songs would be repeated in my head..and I would constantly be reminded of them...here are some of them...
o/~ Prone to wander, Lord I feel it. Prone to leave the God I love..Hears my heart oh take and seal it seal it for thy courts above.

-my mind was wandering this morning as I was trying to focus.. I don't like that. I want to focus..and..yet my mind keeps...going off...reminds me that we do wander..but we just need to give it to him..ask Him for help..to seal our hearts..help us keep our minds on him always :)

o/~For I am His and He is mine Bought with the precious blood of Christ ......... no power in hell, no scheme of man can ever pluck me from his hand, Til he returns or calls me home.. Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

-I think...i think of this song or these particular phrases from this song so much cuz its a constant reminder....that God is good...and that he's always there for me.. when all else fails..when I feel weak..when I seem wrong...when I seem out of place...the odd one out.. when no one cares... when..I'm all alone....I know..that NOTHING>..nothing..can take me from him..and that is such a great feeling =)

TOday..we went to look into renting bunk beds...but we went to places..and called up places and it was either pretty expensive or they didn't rent out for such a short period of time..OR they just didn't have any bunk beds..
But I KNOw for a fact that God is going to provide us. He has provided us with a solution that we had already thought impossible...by letting us all live together under the same roof. It may be a bit squishy...but...maybe it'll be a good time for us all to bond..and grow closer...to each other.. I know God has a plan... :)

I'm still learning every day how to depend entirely on God.. I know that I keep trying to struggle with him and thus things...are always harder than they should be...because the few times that I relied entirely on him..I felt such joy in listening and being able to trust and obey :) SUCH joy :) :) =) ...I've never felt..before.. I know I want to do his will...yet..sometimes...it doesn't seem as though I'm able..

I can't believe I've been here so long already...its almost the half way point and I don't feel as though I've done anything.. I know I've been learning..but I want to learn more...and I want to serve more... and do more..for God.. and rely more on him... ^_^ so...I'm going to keep reading..and listening..and praying...:) so..I'll leave this for now.. =) but...Good luck to those of you with exams!!! esp those back home.. hope to talk to you all soon =)

Tiff is coming in a week tomorrow! :) I'm sooo excited about her coming! =) Keep praying for her safety in travelling..and in health. =) I've tried to write this one entry in...and I've typed it out 2 times..and both times...I pressed post and publish and it DISAPPEARED! :( .. I don't think computers like me very much.

a little bit of background.. Tiff was coming soon..and we were trying to find a place for one of us to live..our options were 1/ bunk bed...in the room we have now..living with the elderly couple 2/ moving to another place..(cheap rent).. 3/finding someone who lives nearby..who has an extra room..

but Ivan had asked the elderly couple that we live with whether they have friends with an extra room..so they said they would look..but they didn't offer for us to live an extra person here..so ...we didn't ask..them directly..

okay..so this is what happened..last thursday..: this is a clip from what I wrote in my journal:

I was feeling really isolated...and alone this morning..but it is especially during these times that I find that God shows me all the more that he cares about me..despite the fact that I feel that no one else does..I know.he's Always...a constant ^_^ .. I was feeling bad in the morning..cuz..I've been living here..at the elderly couple's place for about 2 weeks..and I still feel like I don't really know them..and haven't gotten a chance to talk to them. We've said hi...but..but...it just didn't seem right.. They mostly speak mandarin..so I knew it would be hard..but I knew..that things were not supposed to be this way. Little did I know that God was going to provide the opportunity for us to talk later that night :) :)

k...so at night..I was making wonton(the only thing I know how to make)...cuz Anita and Ivan had gone out....and said they wouldn't be back....but we had the ingrediants ready..so...I prepped it all..and started wrapping..and the the elderly couple came over to see what I was doing...anyways...the elderly woman,Mrs.. wong got all excited cuz she's never and decided to help me ..as she had never wrapped wontons like that before...as we wrapped...we began to talk...just about stuff...but then...I had this feeling that God wanted me to bring up Tiff...so...I did....and...I mentionned that she was younger. The elderly couple got worried...about her coming on the plane alone.. Then...I brought up..that we were looking for a place...for her to live(actually for one of us to live..as we wouldn't have let her live on her own..)

..and they told me that Ivan had asked them to ask their friends if they had extra rooms...they could rent out.. Then....they told me that they talked to their friends but no one really wanted to open a room for 6 weeks...but then...they said...that if its only for 6 weeks and since she is so young.. They suggested that we rent a bunk bed for her to live with us...and put it in our room. So I asked them if it would be too many people and they said no. They said as long as we don't mind living 3 to a room. ^_^ !! I was so excited and happy at that moment..firstly cuz...God answered our prayer in the best way possible..some way that we couldn't have ever thought of.. I wasn't sure if it would all work out with Rending a bunk bed.. But even if it does not...it provided us with an option that Tiff could stay with us. God is so good!
Who would've thought that being able to make wonton would be the way I get a chance to talk to the elderly couple ! :) :) Thank the LOrd!!! :) :) hehe...God uses..even the little bits of skill that I have..to glorify him...its such a reasuurance..:) thank you.. thank you..

Ai yah.... I just wrote this whole thing..and it just disappeared O_o ..oi...that's not cool... I'll write later..

Hmm....I was going to write yesterday but I didn't get the chance to..so...I'll write about it today :)
I've NEVER been so scared walking home by myself in the dark before. I've done it tons of times...but..I don't know...something about yesterday night was really creepy. I dunno...maybe it was cuz...from church...things weren't as expected. I went to church to practise piano..expecting that the choir members would show up at 4...but...no one did...so....I kept on practising...then..this man knocks on the door and says that there was going to be a concert! so...I was like...okay...I'll practise..on the other piano..but then...tons of ppl came in..so I didn't feel comfortable..

Anyways...I was about to leave.when Angela and her mom came in..needing to use the phone. God has a plan :) cuz if I had left they wouldn't have been able to use the phone... but anyways...staying around to play with Angela for a bit...but hten it was raining a real dark out..so I decided to leave. I walked to the nearest bus stop...but I saw a bunch of guys surrounded it..O_o ..hmm..i thought...i prolly should go to the next one.. so...I started to walk and walk ...and walk...but after 5-10minutes...still no bus stop.. :? :? um...... I kept walking and finally I found one...but...all the while..I kept thinking people were going to jump on me...or were following me...I've never felt soooo scared!!! and I kept praying... anyways...I was about to keep walking from that bus stop..when I was reminded of the bus schedule in my backpack. Checking it...it said 6:18 was the next bus. I looked at my watch ..: 6:18 exactly!! THANK yoU God! ^_^ ....the bus..came..and..though it was perfuming..and stinky...and..hot...I felt so relieved!

Neways...getting off the bus...I was walking back...I was really jumpy and unlike canada...ppl don't turn on their outdoor lights...and the street lights were so dim....everytime Iwalked passed a driveway..or fence...I thought...someone was going to jump out at me. THEN this guy...closed his garage door...it made my heart JUMP.. so scared. Walking in the gate of the house..I looked up at the stars,...and thanked God. My heart...was so relieved! ....Thank the Lord for protecting me! :)

Hiya =)
I've never been fond of blogs cuz the whole idea that people can read into my thoughts and stuff without really knowing me really scares me....but I figure that it would be easier to share what God's been teaching me here in Aussie...easier...if people care to know...so I decided to start a page. I have no idea,...how to do this...so...hehe...we'll see how it goes.. I've set up this page...awhile...just haven't decided whether to use it or not.. we'll see =) neways...sorry its taken so long..