~Faithful is He ~
Worthy is the Lamb.
Wow, God never ceases to amaze me :) beyond measure :)
one verse that's been speaking out to me vividly all week. "Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find. Knock and the door will be opened to you. For whoever asks receives, he who seeks finds and to Him who knocks the door will be opened" Matthew 7:7
All week...Satan's been casting lies at me. Lies such as ....you're telling everyone about all these things because you want to make yourself look good. It's your pride kicking in. You don't want to glorify God. It's for you and not God. So believable yet not true. This has made me hesitate so much in sharing with others... but tonight when Roger spoke...we need to choose to follow. I realized that this isn't about me at all ..and that thought wasn't in my heart..it IS about God...I just kept doubting myself. And I need to share not because I need to for me...but because it gives Him back the glory rather than keeping it all for myself. I don't know if i'm explaining it properly ...in words.
But the Lord is good! I'm sharing with you NOT because I want you to think I'm cool or whatnot.. cuz I don't. but because JESUS did this and I don't want to rob you of being blessed by his faithfulness. Keep breaking me Lord and opening my eyes.
So all week, I've been battling with whether the Lord wants me to do what happened last week again. And again lies...being like..no. you've done it once. again your pride. or..God didn't even give you a vision, why do it?
But i was reading in John 4:34-37 which reminded me of a verse Diana (lab tech) gave me this past week in Matthew 9:35-38 which says: "Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore to send out workers into his harvest field"
and I realized that there are so many that don't know that the Lord wants to bless. So i decided I will go. So I walked, praising the Lord and praying against pride against my flesh. Lord may they see you and none of me. They need the Lord. So i walked refusing to let my mind argue with Satan. Standing at Mcdonalds, i had to wait a little...fear tries to creep in. I walk along downtown. Not a homeless person in sight. Thoughts filled my mind. Could God not place anyone? No..Heidi. He is faithful. You're only downtown, you still haveta walk all the way to Nazarene. I realized that perhaps my eyes are not opened. Perhaps I wasn't seeing as God saw. As it says in John 4. "I tell, you, open your eyes and Look at the fields!"I prayed...Lord open my eyes.
God has a sense of humour.:) There was a girl walking in front of me all this while as I was praying. Finally i asked..."where is she going?" so I decided to go up to her and ask "where are you going?" her answer "home" .....I offer her tea saying I know it's for someone but I don't know who. She hesitates and asks me "where are you going?" me: "church". ... then she says something like.. "i've been thinking about going to church for some time" I think...wow...this is the person God has placed. Before I was uncertain which is why i hadn't given her the food cuz I think i expected someone else. me: "do you want to come to church with me today? " she says.."sure" me: "REALLY?" she says yes. :) :) :) :) :) PRaise the Lord. Wow. God is amazing! He is sooooo faithful! i did nothing but He did it all. I got a chance to talk with her a bit and she's such a cool person =) =)
somehow, I feel like I've condensed what happened so much.. but if you want to know more email me o_osmile@yahoo.com ..or call me...i'd love to share with you. :) It's not about me. It's about Jesus. So Give Him the Praise :) :)
Worthy is the Lamb.
Wow, God never ceases to amaze me :) beyond measure :)
one verse that's been speaking out to me vividly all week. "Ask and you will receive, seek and you will find. Knock and the door will be opened to you. For whoever asks receives, he who seeks finds and to Him who knocks the door will be opened" Matthew 7:7
All week...Satan's been casting lies at me. Lies such as ....you're telling everyone about all these things because you want to make yourself look good. It's your pride kicking in. You don't want to glorify God. It's for you and not God. So believable yet not true. This has made me hesitate so much in sharing with others... but tonight when Roger spoke...we need to choose to follow. I realized that this isn't about me at all ..and that thought wasn't in my heart..it IS about God...I just kept doubting myself. And I need to share not because I need to for me...but because it gives Him back the glory rather than keeping it all for myself. I don't know if i'm explaining it properly ...in words.
But the Lord is good! I'm sharing with you NOT because I want you to think I'm cool or whatnot.. cuz I don't. but because JESUS did this and I don't want to rob you of being blessed by his faithfulness. Keep breaking me Lord and opening my eyes.
So all week, I've been battling with whether the Lord wants me to do what happened last week again. And again lies...being like..no. you've done it once. again your pride. or..God didn't even give you a vision, why do it?
But i was reading in John 4:34-37 which reminded me of a verse Diana (lab tech) gave me this past week in Matthew 9:35-38 which says: "Jesus went through all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, preaching the good news of the kingdom and healing every disease and sickness. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion on them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore to send out workers into his harvest field"
and I realized that there are so many that don't know that the Lord wants to bless. So i decided I will go. So I walked, praising the Lord and praying against pride against my flesh. Lord may they see you and none of me. They need the Lord. So i walked refusing to let my mind argue with Satan. Standing at Mcdonalds, i had to wait a little...fear tries to creep in. I walk along downtown. Not a homeless person in sight. Thoughts filled my mind. Could God not place anyone? No..Heidi. He is faithful. You're only downtown, you still haveta walk all the way to Nazarene. I realized that perhaps my eyes are not opened. Perhaps I wasn't seeing as God saw. As it says in John 4. "I tell, you, open your eyes and Look at the fields!"I prayed...Lord open my eyes.
God has a sense of humour.:) There was a girl walking in front of me all this while as I was praying. Finally i asked..."where is she going?" so I decided to go up to her and ask "where are you going?" her answer "home" .....I offer her tea saying I know it's for someone but I don't know who. She hesitates and asks me "where are you going?" me: "church". ... then she says something like.. "i've been thinking about going to church for some time" I think...wow...this is the person God has placed. Before I was uncertain which is why i hadn't given her the food cuz I think i expected someone else. me: "do you want to come to church with me today? " she says.."sure" me: "REALLY?" she says yes. :) :) :) :) :) PRaise the Lord. Wow. God is amazing! He is sooooo faithful! i did nothing but He did it all. I got a chance to talk with her a bit and she's such a cool person =) =)
somehow, I feel like I've condensed what happened so much.. but if you want to know more email me o_osmile@yahoo.com ..or call me...i'd love to share with you. :) It's not about me. It's about Jesus. So Give Him the Praise :) :)
