random thoughts..
hmm...its so weird being home.. Its reading week and I'm home ^_^ I was soooo excited to see friends i haven't talked to in so long, visit my "kids" and...well just spend time with family and not haveta worry about exams ...well at least not having one exam after another.... and well... its only monday :) and things have been a bit different. I've been at home a lot studying and well having a lot of time to think and reflect on certain things.
"My kids" are not "kids" anymore...they're all grown up...making me realize just how much older I've gotten...walking to MJ today, it reminded me of old times when I wasn't so old and when they were much younger. And just trying to talk to some of them, things are just not the same. It makes me sad sometimes but I realize that God has a plan and that I can only treasure the past and know He's gonna do some much more for each of them in the future ^_^ :)
I think everytime I come home i have this whole sense of confusion of what is going on...and...what I hope. I think mainly cuz I feel like such a burden upon people when I'm around. And as much as I love them, I feel that my presence places more burden on them and this burden I wish not to bring on them. Comparison,, judgement...expectation these are things that bring so much barrier between people...Sorry if I've made anything more difficult for anyone..I really didn't mean to :(
Confusion about other parts of my life...not sure what to think or expect ..but...:) (this entry has been quite depressing...but) I know the Lord is in control ^_^ I'm reminded of matthew 5 and the song with the chorus
o/~ Just keep your eyes on the Lord, ask for peace to fill in your heart. Don't let your troubles burden or darken your every part. God can feed the birds in the air, clothe the lilies lively and fair. So keep your eyes on the Lord, he always cares.
He does know best and that is the hope I have ^_^ Thank you Lord that there is light at the end of the tunnel :) and that we can live in your light every day ^_^
hmm...its so weird being home.. Its reading week and I'm home ^_^ I was soooo excited to see friends i haven't talked to in so long, visit my "kids" and...well just spend time with family and not haveta worry about exams ...well at least not having one exam after another.... and well... its only monday :) and things have been a bit different. I've been at home a lot studying and well having a lot of time to think and reflect on certain things.
"My kids" are not "kids" anymore...they're all grown up...making me realize just how much older I've gotten...walking to MJ today, it reminded me of old times when I wasn't so old and when they were much younger. And just trying to talk to some of them, things are just not the same. It makes me sad sometimes but I realize that God has a plan and that I can only treasure the past and know He's gonna do some much more for each of them in the future ^_^ :)
I think everytime I come home i have this whole sense of confusion of what is going on...and...what I hope. I think mainly cuz I feel like such a burden upon people when I'm around. And as much as I love them, I feel that my presence places more burden on them and this burden I wish not to bring on them. Comparison,, judgement...expectation these are things that bring so much barrier between people...Sorry if I've made anything more difficult for anyone..I really didn't mean to :(
Confusion about other parts of my life...not sure what to think or expect ..but...:) (this entry has been quite depressing...but) I know the Lord is in control ^_^ I'm reminded of matthew 5 and the song with the chorus
o/~ Just keep your eyes on the Lord, ask for peace to fill in your heart. Don't let your troubles burden or darken your every part. God can feed the birds in the air, clothe the lilies lively and fair. So keep your eyes on the Lord, he always cares.
He does know best and that is the hope I have ^_^ Thank you Lord that there is light at the end of the tunnel :) and that we can live in your light every day ^_^
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